i'm backkk

I wrote a poem while I was gone! It's not my normal mode of expression, but I hope you like it at least a little bit :)

Touched.

I want simultaneously to be alone and be held

Just as I feel simultaneously deep despair and endless hope

Just as human touch has power to both damage and heal

I want my touch to have the power

To remove the damage

Another's touch has caused.

I want to hold you and in doing so

Take the pain from your body

To mine

Because the fire within

Each molecule of my being

Will be strengthened by knowing

The pain touch has caused.

And don't worry when you see my physical reaction

The vomit and the tears are not weakness,

But love so strong my body cannot contain,

But grace so strong I am entirely consumed,

But an answer to my prayer:

Transformation to a vessel

Which can be filled with a courage and a strength

I, myself, do not possess.

Grace draws me forth,

Grace leaves me just one choice,

Grace fills my brokenness with light

As I walk,

Step by trembling step,

Urgently,

Out of the dark.